Stress Drilon + Hagardo Versoza

Ok so medyo nawala ako sa blog world ng ilang linggo. Sinabi ko naman sanyo kulang na kulang ang bente kwatro oras para sa lahat ng mga gagawin ko. Ano ba mga ganap sakin lately? Well, birthday month ko kasi kaya nag MIA ako sa blog. In short, sa buffet ako busy haha!

Nakakasira ng “weight loss program” ko tong buwan na to! Binilang ko kung ilang beses kami nag buffet – ANIM NA BESES!!! Watdapak! Tapos nagrereklamo ako di ako pumapayat! Haha! Lamon pa more.

Anyway, ang dami ko kasi pinagkakaabalahan nitong mga nakaraang linggo (bukod sa pagkain sa mga buffet). Siyempre, tinatry ko pa din mag workout kahit ng kahit 3-4 times a week. Kasama na yan sa routine ko. Tapos lalaruin ko na si baby, na natuto ng mag explore at maging spiderman kaya di pwede maalis ang paningin ko sa bulilit. Tapos andiyan pa yung bet na bet niya ng maglakad kaya lagi na lang masakit ang mga likod ko. Thunders na talaga!

Bukod sa pag aalaga ng anak, siyempre kailangan ko din alagaan ang sarili ko so maghahanda din ako ng mga healthy meals namin ni habibi. Pag inasa ko kay habibi ang lafang namin, makaasa ka naman na di ka magugutom pero makakaasa ka din na di ka kailanman papayat. Haha! Kailangan pilitin ko kumain kami ng mga staple foods ko – kamote, hard boiled eggs, couscous, quinoa! Pambawi ko kasi yan sa mga nilafang namin sa buffet.

Nag start na din ako ng party planning para sa 1st birthday ni baby. May venue na nabook, which is ang pinaka importante sa lahat. So ngayon makaka focus ako sa ibang details. Nag eenjoy naman ako sa planning kahit medyo stressful kasi alam ko naman di pa maappreciate ni baby ang eyfort ni mudra niya. Simple lang naman ang peg ko, ayaw ko din kasi ng bonggang 1st bday kasi nung minsan dinala namin siya sa birthday party, iyak siya ng iyak. Kawawa naman! Naiingayan siya sa dami ng bata na nagsisigawan, tapos si ate pa na emcee ang lakas ng boses sa mic natatakot si bagets haha! So inassume ko na iiyak lang din siya sa sarili niyang party (wag naman sana). So kaya ang gusto ko yung di maingay masyado (may party ba na ganon? Haha!) Parang prayer meeting lang ang peg!

Isa pa sa mga pinagkakaabalahan ko ay ang holiday namin. Nakakaexcite naman talaga mag travel pero nakakastress ang planning aminin niyo! May dalawa kasing holiday akong inaayos kaya doble din ang stress ko! Haaaay!!! Kaswerte ng mga lalaki, laging ang role ay aattend na lang ng birthday party o kaya sasakay na lang ng eroplano!

 

Nakalimutan ko sabihin, may full time job din pala ako haha! Nagbago kami ng boss kaya busy din ang beauty ko sa office. Ang daming mga big boss na nasa opisina ngayon kaya tadtad din kami ng mga meetings, events, at kung ano-ano pang socializing eklavu!

 

Ayan po mga friends ang mga activities ko lately. Iniisip ko nga kung kalian ako makakasingit ng punta sa parlor, kahit pedicure lang. ang buhok ko wala na namang direksyon ang buhay! Nagmamakaawa na ng rebond! Pedicure nga di ko maorasan, rebond pa na limang oras? Haha!

Eto na lang po muna ang update ko. Back to work na uli para sa pang gatas ni baby! Hanggang sa muli mga kaibigan……

Healthy Stuffed Tuna Avocado


So I have some spare time tonight while baby S is being entertained by SIL. I managed to do some work in the kitchen. Yey!!! 

Being a mother, time is very precious. Every second counts so I need to make the most of my spare time and be productive. 

I managed to squeeze in a 30-minute workout when I got home. Another yey!!! I try to do some workout at least 3-4 times a week. Not to be skinny but mainly to be fit and healthy.

Anyway, back to the topic… So ayun nga, I prepared some couscous and hard boiled eggs for our baon tomorrow. We have so many avocados that we totally forgot we have so I googled some easy and quick avo recipes and saw this healthy tuna stuffed avocado. It’s so easy to make and the ingredients are easily available in your fridge.  

I know it doesn’t look delish on the photo. But it’s surprisingly good and very healthy! Achievement!!!

Baby Blues

I honestly don’t know what to write for my 3rd post. So many things I want to share – parenting, party planning, money matters, health & wellness, baby poop haha! But for now I will settle with baby blues and PPD.

What are baby blues?

Just a few days after giving birth, you may feel moody, weepy and irritable. This is called the baby blues. It’s probably the last thing you expected to feel after the joy and elation of having your baby. The baby blues are so common that they are considered to be normal. As many as eight in 10 mums experience some changes in their mood after giving birth. You may feel:

  • worried about your baby’s health, even though he’s fine
  • anxious
  • unable to concentrate
  • tired, yet unable to sleep
  • tearful, without knowing why

Reference: Baby Centre (www.babycentre.co.uk)

The reality of parenthood had started to sink in when I left the hospital. My first 2 weeks at home was kasumpa-sumpa. Sorry for the term but it wasn’t all exciting, happy-happy, cuddle-cuddle moments like the ones you see in the movies. It was terrible, at least for me! I never felt so tired my whole life! My incision was f*ckin painful I couldn’t laugh, sneeze, cough! Like WTF!!!! Was struggling to breastfeed, no sleep, very hungry, no shower, endless changing of nappies, baby crying nonstop. OMG!!! I felt so helpless. I thought I was losing my mind! I was crying every single time. I was unhappy, I was so sad and tired every single day that there were times I was asking myself if I was a bad mother. I would cry and cry without any reason. I would cry while breastfeeding the baby or putting her to sleep, I would even cry while eating. Geez, PPD just got real!

This went on for 2 months. I didn’t think I will get used to being sleep-deprived, or with my very sore and cracked nipples, the smell of poop and vomit on my clothes and hair, not having a decent shower for days, expressing milk every 3-4 hours. Motherhood had taken its toll on me. The exhaustion was overwhelming and I was on the verge of insanity. Yes, I was going cray-cray!!!

But as days went by, things got better and I started to enjoy my little one. There is indeed a light at the end of the tunnel! Whew! I become more engaging, feeding time becomes more enjoyable, I find delight bonding with the baby. I stop doubting myself as a mother. I know i am not a perfect mom, but I always try to be a good one. I know my daughter will forgive me for yelling at her because she won’t stop crying in the middle of the night – sorry darling, it wasn’t your fault, it was the fatigue talking (or yelling). But this doesn’t mean I love my baby any less. Yes I did have moments that I want to give up and say “F*ck it, I am tired and I will sleep!” And I admit I still do have that moments once in a while. I still daydream about shower, food, and sleep. I still miss my “me-time” as the only me-time I do enjoy these days are the times when I take number two (sorry TMI haha).

Being a mother now, I realized that it IS indeed a lot of work. Your job as a mother never stops. It is a 24 hours, 7 days a week, 365 days full time job. I now understand the mothers who went through or are going through this baby blues or PPD. It is real, alarming and it is happening to almost 80% of all new moms. I’ve even read stories where mothers hurt themselves or their own child. Fortunately that didn’t happen to me. I went through that unhappy phase but my love for my baby is more than enough for me to fight it. Plus it is important to have a strong support group like your husband, partner, family, and friends. Talk to them if you need to. Let them know how you feel so they can help you to get through it. PPD is more serious, so if you think you are experiencing it and cannot handle yourself, please seek professional help. Don’t feel ashamed reaching out. Motherhood will drain you out – physically, emotionally and mentally. You will need all the help you can get, trust me.